Changes

I know that with life there comes changes.

But I can't help it that I am one that dislike changes of any sort.

I have never liked them and never adjusted well to them.

It was a rare sort for me to up and quit my job to move to Pittsburgh.

But I did it and in turn I have a wonderful family and a great city I live in.

I know am faced with certain decisions that could affect me for the rest of my life.

Shawn and Caspian too.

Its hard doing what we do. Working opposite shifts , maybe seeing each other 30 mins a day and spending mostly half of 2 or 3 days a week together. I can't say its better or worse for the relationship. but what i can say is nothing gets done around the house because we are both tired all the time.

I want it to be so that one of us doesn't have to work as much and still the other doesn't work too much that they are never home. oh to the woes of life.

I think i have stressed my self out completely . i can't remember what else i was going to say but this is all for now.

For My Boys

I didn't love at first sight. But you were a friend, then you became my best friend. And my best friend became my love. And now you are my husband. And I wouldn't change anything for the world. You might frustrate me or make me so mad, but at the end of the day I love you. And before we found out we were expecting was some of the best days ever.
And then we found out that 2 would become 3. I wasn't expecting to expect. It threw me off . I was a bundle of emotions. But I wouldn't change a thing. We were planning our wedding and starting our life together. What better way to do that then add a bundle of joy into our life.
Almost half way threw the pregnancy you became my husband. It was hard to adjust that it wasn't going to be just you and me anymore. I was sorta being selfish by just wanting it to be me and you for a long long time. But we only had a couple more months. Now that Caspian is here I wouldn't go back and do anything differently. God had a plan and everything has fallen into the right place. You and me together forever and Caspian as well.
He came into this world and changed how I view life. Everything revolves around me taking care of them . Making sure that we are all happy. And at times it might be stressful, and i might be tired, or mad , or sad but I will not no matter what happens love my boys. I regret ever thinking that I might not want to have Caspian. Caspian I love you! And Shawn you are my rock, you hold me up when i feel like i am going to fall. I love you too!

I couldn't ask for a better set of boys. My family is the greatest thing in my life and I want the world to know. Sometimes i have a hard time showing it. So i'm just reminding you that I do love you. And reminding myself that when times are tough that you guys are here to love me too.

Summer = Busy

I've have a hard time getting any where near my computer in the last week or so. Getting ready to go on a vacation, it keeps you busy. Ali baby sat for us last Friday. She took some awesomely cute photos of Caspian (like the one above) . I've had something to do pretty much every morning before work/day off. But I have gotten things done. Got a new piece of furniture and organized the living room, got the oil and transmission fluid changed on my car, visited with Sarath and Raymond,went to the Strip (and got the stuff my family wants but can't get in Alabama) and even went on a date.

I'll start with Caspian's dr.'s apt last Monday. He went in for a weight check up. He is doing well... He now weighs 12 lbs 6 oz.

Tuesday we spent getting a new piece of furniture with Stephen and Grandma. We also had a nice lunch.Later we went to hang out with Courey and the Hartung's.Caspian saw Christina crawl and decided that it would be fun to try.

Thursday Caspian and me went to Sarath's. That was alot of fun .

Friday morning I went and got the cars transmission fluid changed. Then we had out date. Shawn and me went to lunch at Kaya , its part of the company that I work for. Then we went to see Eclipse, it was pretty good. Better than the last 2. Then we went home and shortly after that we went to the Hartung's. Caspian has now decided that he wants to crawl. It is the cutest thing in the world.

Saturday and Sunday were pretty much catching up on sleep and working. getting things done like laundry and making meals.

Then Monday we went to the Strip. Got things that my family wanted but can't get in Alabama.

Today I went grocery shopping . Then came home and napped. I also got caspian the right size shoes and swim outfit. Courey came over and hung out. Then I did the dishes. Working on getting all the bills set up to be paid while we go out of town. And starting to think about packing.

So as you can see I have been really busy. Lots of things on my mind. Needing rest. Stressed. Working . Missing time with Shawn and Cas. I forget most of what i ever want to write in here. I feel bad for neglecting my blog. But then again there are more important things than blogging.

So for now this is what is on my mind- Things we take for granted might not be around for our kids. - I read this on a journal at the bookstore the other day. And it is so true

Delayed

I wanted to post a large , descriptive post for the last week. Its been that long since I posted. Been very busy. Instead of posting i reorganized the living room. Its exciting.Planning on putting the rung in the living room tomorrow.... for now time to fix my desk.

Taking things for Granted

Its not till you don't have something that you realize how much you took it for granted. Like having a dishwasher, or an ice cube maker , 2 cars, etc. You learn to appreciate the small things. but then again sometimes its hard. I love my husband and son.... I appreciate them . I appreciate that I have job and my husbands that pays my bills . Sometimes its hard, really hardEspecially since we work opposite shifts and we don't get much time together. I get down and stressed , sometimes its hard to get back up from that. I try really hard to be the best I can for the both of them. But its tiring. And sometimes i feel like that I give all of myself to them and don't keep any of myself for me. I know thats not true but thats how it feels sometime. I appreciate my family. Thank you lord for giving me the two most awesome boys. I won't take them for granted.

The Fourth his 5th month

Caspian enjoyed watching the fireworks with me.

Caspian turned 5 months old yesterday. It's weird thinking that 5 months ago he was itty bitty and didn't do much of anything. We had a good fourth of July. We spent the day with the Degeorge's

We all laughed and giggled a lot... Caspian was so happy!
Missing one ... He's in Germany with his wife and kid.
Ali rocked Caspian to sleep twice. Though it didn't always last long .
What joy we get out of seeing him laugh...
It makes me a happier person to know that my husband and kid are happy!

If it wasn't for Courey I would probably go insane. I enjoy getting to spend time with her and become better friends. And to think that when I flew up here to met her I was scared of her.... What a crazy woman I am.
Shawn enjoyed the afternoon, ended up talking to James for a while. I am excited that James got place in Pittsburgh. Shawn really needs a guy friend around.
Me and Cas just chilling on the floor.
Just relaxing makes everything so much better.
Caspian had so much fun playing with Frank.
He loved his beard.
Laughing with Vincent....
Relaxing with Stephen.
It was a great day.

Behind and Uninspired

I am two days behind and I really feel uninspired to write anything at all.... fail...