Changes

I know that with life there comes changes.

But I can't help it that I am one that dislike changes of any sort.

I have never liked them and never adjusted well to them.

It was a rare sort for me to up and quit my job to move to Pittsburgh.

But I did it and in turn I have a wonderful family and a great city I live in.

I know am faced with certain decisions that could affect me for the rest of my life.

Shawn and Caspian too.

Its hard doing what we do. Working opposite shifts , maybe seeing each other 30 mins a day and spending mostly half of 2 or 3 days a week together. I can't say its better or worse for the relationship. but what i can say is nothing gets done around the house because we are both tired all the time.

I want it to be so that one of us doesn't have to work as much and still the other doesn't work too much that they are never home. oh to the woes of life.

I think i have stressed my self out completely . i can't remember what else i was going to say but this is all for now.

For My Boys

I didn't love at first sight. But you were a friend, then you became my best friend. And my best friend became my love. And now you are my husband. And I wouldn't change anything for the world. You might frustrate me or make me so mad, but at the end of the day I love you. And before we found out we were expecting was some of the best days ever.
And then we found out that 2 would become 3. I wasn't expecting to expect. It threw me off . I was a bundle of emotions. But I wouldn't change a thing. We were planning our wedding and starting our life together. What better way to do that then add a bundle of joy into our life.
Almost half way threw the pregnancy you became my husband. It was hard to adjust that it wasn't going to be just you and me anymore. I was sorta being selfish by just wanting it to be me and you for a long long time. But we only had a couple more months. Now that Caspian is here I wouldn't go back and do anything differently. God had a plan and everything has fallen into the right place. You and me together forever and Caspian as well.
He came into this world and changed how I view life. Everything revolves around me taking care of them . Making sure that we are all happy. And at times it might be stressful, and i might be tired, or mad , or sad but I will not no matter what happens love my boys. I regret ever thinking that I might not want to have Caspian. Caspian I love you! And Shawn you are my rock, you hold me up when i feel like i am going to fall. I love you too!

I couldn't ask for a better set of boys. My family is the greatest thing in my life and I want the world to know. Sometimes i have a hard time showing it. So i'm just reminding you that I do love you. And reminding myself that when times are tough that you guys are here to love me too.