Things to work on...

Its nice to be able to get out and about and meet with other women and just relax. 2 hrs I don't have to worry about cas and 2 hrs when shawn is a work. Stress free until I leave. Then the reality of life kicks back into gear . Oh the holiday season is upon us... the start of 6 day work weeks has arrived. I am not happy. the stress of what to do for Halloween, what to make for thanksgiving and what to get people for Christmas has arrived. With Halloween a few days away its all well and good. I have my costume and caspian has his. We have are plans and i am super excited. We have decided that we are going to keep Christmas simple. Just get each others a few things, not spending much over 50 per each of us and just get cas a few things. He doesn't need a lot he doesn't get the concept of the whole thing yet. I also don't want him to expect crazy outrageous Christmas's later on in life because Christmas is about Christ not presents. I on the other hand and still struggling with a few things. Its hard for me, to be where i am at right now. Its a struggle everyday. If it wasn't for shawn and Cas i would have such a harder time. I am working on some things right now. All in my head. Just breathe.... I need to start thinking before i speak... stay calm.... and breathe. What we talked about mops totally pertains to what i've been thinking about lately.Now its just getting everything worked on.

Working on Life

Everyday is a new page in my book. And some days are harder to write than others. i have decided that i should make goals for each day and maybe that will help me with the harder days and make the other days feel more accomplished. There has been alot going on. Caspian takes up so much of my time. In less than four months he will be a year old. I still don't know where the last 8 ish months have gone. Work is hard. I still have things I am dealing with. It makes 3 plus days of the week alot harder. Being able to spend my free time doing things i love help but lately we haven't has the time. Trying to organize and baby proof the apartment. working on getting rid of clothes that I don't fit in or don't wear any more. Hopefully organizing and simplifying will make things around the house easier. Which in turn will make more free time for things i love. Time with my family, crafting, photography, etc. Its that time of year to start thinking about the holidays... starting with halloween, then thanksgiving, then christmas followed by new years. Hopefully going to have a harry potter halloween party, and going trick or treating (already got mine and Caspian's costume). Dom , Vanessa, and santino are here for thanksgiving! We are thankful that they are going to be here . Excited about christmas it will be Caspians 1st !!!! Working on what i am going to make for everyone and what to get my husband and son. Got one of my christmas presents already... yes i picked it out . i am excited about it. and then new years... not so excited about that holiday. I am working on some of my issues. It helps that I have shawn and some of my friends from my MOPS group. It helps I have other friends too. If i didn't have some of these people i would be a wreck. I hope that by changing how i approach the day .

Wo