Things to work on...

Its nice to be able to get out and about and meet with other women and just relax. 2 hrs I don't have to worry about cas and 2 hrs when shawn is a work. Stress free until I leave. Then the reality of life kicks back into gear . Oh the holiday season is upon us... the start of 6 day work weeks has arrived. I am not happy. the stress of what to do for Halloween, what to make for thanksgiving and what to get people for Christmas has arrived. With Halloween a few days away its all well and good. I have my costume and caspian has his. We have are plans and i am super excited. We have decided that we are going to keep Christmas simple. Just get each others a few things, not spending much over 50 per each of us and just get cas a few things. He doesn't need a lot he doesn't get the concept of the whole thing yet. I also don't want him to expect crazy outrageous Christmas's later on in life because Christmas is about Christ not presents. I on the other hand and still struggling with a few things. Its hard for me, to be where i am at right now. Its a struggle everyday. If it wasn't for shawn and Cas i would have such a harder time. I am working on some things right now. All in my head. Just breathe.... I need to start thinking before i speak... stay calm.... and breathe. What we talked about mops totally pertains to what i've been thinking about lately.Now its just getting everything worked on.