Longing...

Spent a day at the park... it wasn't the first day that made me realize this longing I have.... Growing up I never wanted to get married or have kids.

Then I decided marriage wasn't all to bad , since I had found the right guy..

Then I still wasn't sure about kids... Even when I got pregnant I wasn't

sure.

I have spent a year being a full time mom and a full time employee. I've always worked Its what I know. But this year was one of the hardest years. Trying to be the best i could be ... And it was difficult.
I learned a lot of things this year and figured things out about myself. Well Caspian's birthday came and I had the week off of work. Even though it was stressful. I enjoyed being home all day with my family.
Then it came to me.... I long to be home taking care of my family... Maybe one day...